Impulsive

   Yesterday, I noticed that my impulsive behaviour was getting worse. Well, I just got my new phone and I really love it, but I don't  know how, the screen got a minor scratch that I had not notice  before. Though the scratch was not too obvious it bothered me so much and I can see the colour distortion occurs on it. I had a bad instinct that it is caused by the seller of the screen protector. I noticed that at the back of the phone which a layer of protection is also applied on, there are so many small scratches. I suspected that the seller just did her job on a bare table without protection. I quickly  teared out the front screen protector, then bam I could see the scratch.

   I was so mad and panic at the same time. My head started to drench with cold sweat. I tried many solutions which appeared to be ridiculous but I just can't think right. The only thing I knew is to get rid of the scratch. I asked my parents to take me to the nearest phone shop in order to get new screen protector even though it's already late at night and most probably all the shops were already closed. And even I managed to get to some shop, they don't have the screen protector. I felt so guilty to drag along my parents into my impulsive behaviour.

   I tried to calm down but my head kept telling me what if I never met that seller hence this thing will never happened. I could not accept the fact and wanted an immediate solution. Even though I realized that it is so small and nothing can be done in order to fix the scratch unless I changed the screen. I was so mad because I only had the phone for 2 days and an irresponsible seller marked a very first scratch on it. 

   One thing crossed my mind, I always want things to be the way I want and of course  the reality won't  let that happened all the time thus I'm having a constant heartbreak throughout my life. I cannot accept the flaws even for my own flaws that I cannot really change. I feel so disappointed when someone didn't treat me the way I expected them to. This kind of mindset is killing me day by day. I need to stop obsessing over small flaws. That minor scratch had nothing to do with the phone's performance. Plus it can be hidden by applying a new screeb protector.

   I should stop this. I should look on the brighter side more and live with the flaws. This is why I am always down and it is because I'm bringing myself down all the time. Okay, the lesson is learned and i got to pick up a great screen protector and beautiful casing for my imperfectly perfect phone. I should love myself more.